Loopy, Lonely and Lost

Posts Tagged ‘mood swings

It’s now officially the day I go back to uni.

I’m so scared it hurts, I feel all twisted and wound up inside.

I have so many plans, mostly involving being super-organised and completely un-Laura-ish. The truth is that being Laura-ish hasn’t really made my life any easier these past few years, so perhaps it’s time to enforce some discipline and organisation on myself. Read the rest of this entry »

I have, I suppose, two main things to write about tonight. And it seems pointless to write about them as two separate posts. So I’m shoving them together, whether they belong together or not.

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Since more or less everything I’ve written here lately has been along the lines of “waaaaaaaah! I’m saaaaaaaaad!” I thought maybe I’d write here when I feel okay. Don’t worry, though, fans (?) of complaining. There’ll be plenty of that, too.

All in all, right now, I’m pretty chirpy. And within that general pretty-chirpiness, there’s a constantly slightly-undulating mood.

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Posted on: July 31, 2009

Exclamation marks are so much more jolly than full stops, aren’t they?

Nothing has changed, but everything has changed. I feel so very different. Read the rest of this entry »


Posted on: April 14, 2009

I’ve got a new charger (hurray!) and it seems to be behaving itself (fingers crossed), so hopefully I am once again amongst those lucky people who have computers. I’ve been going out of my mind without computer access – the internet can be a great distraction. So without it, I’ve been reading more, talking more, and so on, when I’ve felt like it.

In the absence of this blog to ramble on, I’ve been writing various notes and so on in a notebook. I’m going to recreate them here, because I can’t think of any other way to explain the past few days. I can only describe it when I’m feeling it. Read the rest of this entry »

I feel so grumpy. Just generally irritable and pissed off.

I stayed away from people all day because I knew I’d probably end up being a bitch to them. Read the rest of this entry »

I accidentally almost called this post “not goo”, which is technically true and a bit more entertaining, but, well…I suppose I’m just a stickler for keeping with my original intentions.

Things are not going well. I really, really, really do not want this. Read the rest of this entry »


Posted on: January 27, 2009

The silence and emptiness and blankness of the past few days have broken.

I want them back. I want a barrier between me and this. I fucking hate it.

I’m just sitting and hiding and crying. I feel like such an idiot. Read the rest of this entry »


My name is Laura. I was once told that I have cyclothymia. This blog is mostly where I write about living as a person with extremes and instability of mood, and the history of a life that led to the development of those symptoms.

I complain a lot, I'm very repetitive, unreliable, and I tend to contradict myself.

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