Loopy, Lonely and Lost

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I went out with some people from work last night, had a few drinks and a bit of a laugh. It was an okay night – nothing special, but it’s nice to get out and do something, isn’t it? I wasn’t really drunk, just a bit tipsy, and I got home at a reasonable hour and went straight to bed. Read the rest of this entry »

I don’t know how old I am. I think, maybe, that’s because this isn’t, strictly speaking, a real memory. It’s an archetype, a platonic ideal. I can describe it as one occurrance, even if the exact words, the exact timeline, didn’t happen, because that saves me the trouble of casting back in my mind for every time, every distinction between one time and another. They’ve all blurred into one, anyway.

I think I might be about twelve. Read the rest of this entry »


Posted on: May 9, 2009

My memory is going.

Sorry for the general shitness of this post, but pretty much all of my mental capacities seem to be disintegrating. Read the rest of this entry »

A flash of history.

Look at then, look at now. Resist thinking in simple cause-and-effect. Resist wondering, regretting, blaming. What’s past is past, leave it alone. But it keeps coming back. In memory and in real life. History repeats itself. It’s the little things that linger. The everyday things.

It’s not a good story, but a true one. Read the rest of this entry »

I am feeling very nervous, very on edge today. Kind of freaked out.

I feel like I’m losing my mind. Read the rest of this entry »

I can hardly remember it. Here’s what my mind vaguely knows happened: Read the rest of this entry »


My name is Laura. I was once told that I have cyclothymia. This blog is mostly where I write about living as a person with extremes and instability of mood, and the history of a life that led to the development of those symptoms.

I complain a lot, I'm very repetitive, unreliable, and I tend to contradict myself.

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