Loopy, Lonely and Lost

Posts Tagged ‘blankness

Quickly, I’m submerged in an alternative reality.

It’s involuntary, but mostly welcome. Read the rest of this entry »

I am okay.

This is the mood that adds truth when I describe myself as a heartless bitch. Every real emotion is hidden away so far inside of me that I don’t feel like it’s there anymore.

I am not hurting. I am not sad, or worried, or frightened. Read the rest of this entry »


Posted on: October 13, 2009

I don’t understand what’s going on.

I was happy. Elated, even. Then I was irritable. Then I was angry, pissed off. Now I am blank.

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I’m feeling terrible lately.¬†Although, not¬†really depressed, although I was a bit weepy earlier. Read the rest of this entry »

It takes a special kind of talent, I think, to disappear in your own home. Read the rest of this entry »

I’ve spent the day in my pyjamas. In bed. Ignoring knocks on my door. Doing absolutely nothing. Read the rest of this entry »

I’ve been dwelling on this story today.

Warning: you’ve probably guessed, but I wouldn’t like to catch anyone unawares: this post is quite triggery and a bit graphic, so don’t read it if that kind of thing affects you badly. Read the rest of this entry »


My name is Laura. I was once told that I have cyclothymia. This blog is mostly where I write about living as a person with extremes and instability of mood, and the history of a life that led to the development of those symptoms.

I complain a lot, I'm very repetitive, unreliable, and I tend to contradict myself.

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