Loopy, Lonely and Lost

Posts Tagged ‘bipolar

Of course it didn’t last. What the fuck was I thinking of?

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My mood is a little high. You may or may not be glad to know that I am at least aware of this.

Well, it’s hard not to be. Read the rest of this entry »


Posted on: October 8, 2008

It’s all just different kinds of shit. At the end of the day, what’s the difference between my mood being so high I’m incomprehensible and it being so low I can’t get out of bed? Either way, I’m not coping.

But not coping is not an option. Read the rest of this entry »

Somehow, I vaguely feel that, as the title of my post rhymes, it’s less whiny and irrelevant. Read the rest of this entry »

Oh, cyclothymia. Sounds easy, doesn’t it? Easier to put up with than pronounce (for anyone who’s found this post by searching ‘how to pronounce cyclothymia’, it’s something like ‘sike-luh-thy-me-a’, or /ˌsaɪklɵˈθaɪmiəˌ/ for those of us with the pleasure of knowing the IPA). It’s mild bipolar. Consisting of dysthymia – mild depression – and hypomania – mild mania. Sounds like a total walk in the park.

Cyclothymia is probably what people think of when they think of ‘good’ bipolar disorder. Mood swings. Temperamental. Creative. Quirky. A bit grumpy sometimes.

So why, in reality, is it so perpetually shit?

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Last time I felt like this, I told my then-CPN about it. She looked worried and went off to find the psychiatrist to demand a change of medication.

So I’m pretty sure that this mood can lead me to nowhere good. Read the rest of this entry »

Life never turns out exactly how you want it to, does it?

Eleven days until I go back to university. I’ve been off for months. I should be better, I should be happier. I should be ready to face this. Read the rest of this entry »


My name is Laura. I was once told that I have cyclothymia. This blog is mostly where I write about living as a person with extremes and instability of mood, and the history of a life that led to the development of those symptoms.

I complain a lot, I'm very repetitive, unreliable, and I tend to contradict myself.

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