Loopy, Lonely and Lost

Posted on: May 9, 2012

I’m not really sure where ‘I’m not suicidal’ came from yesterday.

I’m feeling pretty horrific. Anxiety levels through the roof. I can’t remember ever feeling this bad, although I suppose I must have done.

I just want to run away or jump off a bridge or stab myself.

I don’t know what to do. I don’t know how to make this go away. I feel so tightly wound, like a coiled spring, I can’t sleep, I can’t even think properly, all there is in my head is graphic images of ways of hurting myself, ways of dying, the only thing I can think of to stop this.

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Hello

My name is Laura. I was once told that I have cyclothymia. This blog is mostly where I write about living as a person with extremes and instability of mood, and the history of a life that led to the development of those symptoms.

I complain a lot, I'm very repetitive, unreliable, and I tend to contradict myself.

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