Loopy, Lonely and Lost

Irritable

Posted on: January 22, 2012

I’m being irritable. A bit of a bitch, to be honest.

There’s a woman at work. She keeps sighing. It is driving me MAD. It sets my teeth on edge. It makes me grip the arms of my chair with my nails. It makes me want to say cruel and unnecessary things. I don’t know where the anger’s coming from.

It reminds me of a few years ago, being at a music festival, pacing round and round a field, dragging my friend along, ranting all the while, never shutting up, hardly stopping for breath, tearing my hair out, shouting and stamping my feet over some habit of someone’s – so small I can’t even remember the details now.

I want to be calm and sensible, but I just feel like throwing things. I know I can’t. I know I have to calm down. I’m not a fucking child. I need to learn to control myself.

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Hello

My name is Laura. I was once told that I have cyclothymia. This blog is mostly where I write about living as a person with extremes and instability of mood, and the history of a life that led to the development of those symptoms.

I complain a lot, I'm very repetitive, unreliable, and I tend to contradict myself.

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