Good news.
Posted on: July 27, 2011
Today, when I got in from work, there was an A4 envelope in the hall, addressed to me, with my university’s symbol on it.
I ran upstairs with it and tore it open with my eyes screwed up, so unsure and afraid.
It was a certificate.
Presumably sick and tired of waiting for me to actually do anything, they’ve awarded me a third class degree.
I mean, I know it’s not much. In academic terms, it’s hardly worth the paper it’s written on. But I suppose it’s alright, considering I failed two modules – for one of which I didn’t even submit anything.
And it means that it is over.
I don’t have to be scared anymore about what I’m going to do. I don’t have to tell lies. It’s closed the gap. It means that if I ever want to apply for another job, I don’t have to be scared about having my CV scrutinised, because it’s so much easier to explain a bad degree than it is to explain four years of nothing.
For the first time in years, I feel free. A weight has lifted off my shoulders, and I feel like this awful gnawing, grinding sensation at the back of my head has gone.
Fuck, you have no idea. I nearly burst into tears when I saw it. And yeah, I have to put up with my mum’s patronising well dones and I know nothing really changes, but I was so scared and now it’s gone.
3 Responses to "Good news."
Sounds like a huge relief for you, I’m glad.
Congrats! To go through all this and to have at least one thing over. I know that feeling well.
Loopy, Lonely and Lost 
1 | Moon Tree
July 28, 2011 at 1:39 pm
I’m new to your blog so I don’t know all the background history, but I can imagine that must be a huge relief for you. And congratulations on your degree!