Loopy, Lonely and Lost

Today, my mum went into hospital.

Posted on: March 5, 2011

She might have to have an operation.

I don’t really know what to do. I just feel guilty, ashamed of all my doubt and impatience, ashamed of being a disappointment. I know it’s not about me but I can’t help but feel that if I was a better person then I’d be able to make her better.

I’ve spent the day in a bit of a daze, wondering around the house without purpose. Going to the kitchen and stuffing my face, an old habit, part boredom, part spiralling lack of control.

Fuck.

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3 Responses to "Today, my mum went into hospital."

Your mum should not abuse you, whether she is ill or not.

She doesn’t. I know I complain a lot but it’s nothing really.

Wishing you the best

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Hello

My name is Laura. I was once told that I have cyclothymia. This blog is mostly where I write about living as a person with extremes and instability of mood, and the history of a life that led to the development of those symptoms.

I complain a lot, I'm very repetitive, unreliable, and I tend to contradict myself.

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