Posts Tagged ‘insomnia’
Quiet
Posted by: Laura on: November 5, 2009
I’m finding words difficult. And everything else, really.
On the bright side, I’m calmer. I’m no longer cluttered with too many thoughts and too much movement.
But I feel like I’m made out of lead.
Stupid, isn’t it? I spend all my time complaining about one thing or another, when I should just accept that there is no [...]
Tightrope walker
Posted by: Laura on: October 30, 2009
I am holding things together. Just about.
I feel, very much, like I’m one of those people who walks on tightropes for a living. Or for fun (weirdos). You know, all I’m doing is walking in a straight line, it should be easy, but one misstep and everything is irretrievably lost. And every time I actually [...]
Things aren’t going brilliantly.
Posted by: Laura on: October 29, 2009
Quelle surprise.
Today: stayed awake all night. Napped for an hour or so this morning. Spent most of the day in a bit of a daze, doing nothing. Then went to training for volunteering – not too bad, although I felt like a spare part all the time because I can’t make anything I say relevant, [...]
Once again,
Posted by: Laura on: October 23, 2009
despite sleeping pills, I have been awake for most of the night. Even when I’ve been lying still with my eyes closed for hours I’ve been aware of every single sound, everything.
I feel completely, utterly unrested.
Do you think if I went to the doctor about not sleeping, they’d insist on talking about my mood? God, they [...]
Excuses, excuses.
Posted by: Laura on: October 21, 2009
So, I got up, today. I’d only had about three hours’ sleep, and much of the morning was spent in a bit of a daze, but nonetheless, let it be noted that I did in fact get up.
I even managed a quick trip to town, although I felt very awkward surrounded by so many people, [...]
It continues…
Posted by: Laura on: October 19, 2009
I’m so tempted to pack up my belongings, throw away my textbooks and call up my parents and ask them to take me home. Then spend the next few weeks, months, years – however long it takes – curled up in my bed and just forgetting.
Better, sort of.
Posted by: Laura on: June 28, 2009
Today I feel much more alive.
I was even cheerful and energetic during the night (and took advantage of the energy to have a shower in the early hours).
I have, however, been awake for quite some time. I’m not quite sure how long. Somewhere between one day and two, I think. Or maybe a little bit [...]
Blaaaah
Posted by: Laura on: June 15, 2009
Update: Nothing.
Nothing has changed. I still feel like complete and utter shit.
I’ve been thinking about something for my dissertation proposal but I’m stuck between two facts:
If I’m going to be spending months researching and writing about something, I want it to be something I’m at least vaguely interested in.
Right now, I’m not even vaguely interested [...]
My exams are over!
Posted by: Laura on: May 29, 2009
I had my final exam this morning.
I only slept for half an hour last night (well, this morning. It was after dawn [don't worry, the night before I had about four hours' sleep, so despite not sleeping at all the night before that, I have in fact recently had some sleep. A little.]).
I think it [...]
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