Posted by: Laura on: October 12, 2009
A conversation in the kitchen. All of my parts are spoken really quite quickly.
Me: (rambling on about something or other)…I like friendliness!
Flatmate: Yeah, I’d noticed…you’re very bubbly.
Me: What, in a bad way?
Flatmate: What? No -
Me: Because someone can be bubbly like…nanananana (doing a little dance), but bubbly can also be like…NANANANANANA (doing a more aggressive [...]
Posted by: Laura on: September 4, 2009
Hurray!
Once again, nothing has changed, but everything has.
I have spent…well, quite some time, I think, before today, genuinely considering and planning and fantasising about my death. How long, I don’t know. Looking back through this blog tells me it’s about 2 and a half weeks since I felt okay, cheerful but pensive, and it was [...]
Posted by: Laura on: June 8, 2009
I really kind of have no idea how I feel or what I’m doing or what the hell’s going on.
Posted by: Laura on: June 5, 2009
….Hello.
Things are going pretty well for me. There’s the slight worry that I’ve failed all of my exams, but I can’t do anything about that now so I’m not really thinking about it.
The past week or so has been filled with good times. I’ve been spending a lot of time with my flatmates, endless games [...]
Posted by: Laura on: May 26, 2009
I’m fiiiiine.
Excellent!
Spent most of last night weeping to myself and writing suicide notes. Then, around about midnight, I decided to see if there was anyone around, just so I could sit in someone’s company (not that I’ve felt like doing that for days) and I got caught up in a hilarious conversation about totalitarianism (no, [...]
Posted by: Laura on: March 17, 2009
There always is a but, isn’t there?
The past few days have been fantastic. Things are still fantastic. I am happy.
Posted by: Laura on: March 14, 2009
I’m not cold, or ill.
It’s the shivers you get when you’re excited, when something good’s going to happen. The pleasurable thrill that runs down your spine when you know that life is incredible.
Posted by: Laura on: February 20, 2009
I think (I hope I hope I hope) that things have taken a turn for the better.
I feel good. And so relieved that I do. I know it won’t last forever but I want to hold on to it.
Posted by: Laura on: November 9, 2008
I haven’t posted for a few days, and I suddenly realised that my last post was kind of negative, and anybody reading this blog might think I was desperately unhappy somewhere.
Untrue!
What people think.