Posts Tagged ‘death’
It continues…
Posted by: Laura on: October 19, 2009
I’m so tempted to pack up my belongings, throw away my textbooks and call up my parents and ask them to take me home. Then spend the next few weeks, months, years – however long it takes – curled up in my bed and just forgetting.
Suicidal thoughts.
Posted by: Laura on: October 5, 2009
Sometimes, I like thinking about suicide. I like making plans, setting dates, focussing really hard on it. It makes me happy, briefly. Not real happiness, admittedly, but a kind of determined anticipation, a kind of relief: just a few more days, just another week, and then…nothing. I won’t exist anymore.
Sick of this.
Posted by: Laura on: August 31, 2009
I’m frightened, all the time. I’m panicking. I feel it in my chest, like somebody’s sitting on me, or like there’s a hand wrapped around my heart, squeezing all the life out of me. I’ve been grinding my teeth, giving myself headaches.
Drivel
Posted by: Laura on: May 14, 2009
If you want to know what she’ll be like when she’s older, just look at her mother…
Posted by: Laura on: April 26, 2009
I’m having to make a conscious effort to write this. I’m going back to uni tomorrow, and I don’t know when I’ll next have access to a computer in a place where I feel comfortable writing about myself. I’m having some difficulty finding the words, at the minute. I don’t quite know how to say what [...]
Almost mump-free!
Posted by: Laura on: March 27, 2009
Edit: Sorry, the title of this post makes it seem much more cheerful than it actually is.
(Unrelated to anything: can you have a single mump?)
Thanks for all your nice messages following my previous post. I’m mostly better now, I just get tired and a little headachey if I have a long day. So, that’s okay.
Sink or Swim
Posted by: Laura on: October 10, 2008
After a good day or so I’m feeling bad again. Not terrible – far from the worst I’ve felt – but bad.
Warning: extended metaphor and general sadness.
The Story of my Suicide Attempt
Posted by: Laura on: September 1, 2008
I’ve been dwelling on this story today.
Warning: you’ve probably guessed, but I wouldn’t like to catch anyone unawares: this post is quite triggery and a bit graphic, so don’t read it if that kind of thing affects you badly.
What people think.