Posts Tagged ‘anxiety’
Tightrope walker
Posted by: Laura on: October 30, 2009
I am holding things together. Just about.
I feel, very much, like I’m one of those people who walks on tightropes for a living. Or for fun (weirdos). You know, all I’m doing is walking in a straight line, it should be easy, but one misstep and everything is irretrievably lost. And every time I actually [...]
It continues…
Posted by: Laura on: October 19, 2009
I’m so tempted to pack up my belongings, throw away my textbooks and call up my parents and ask them to take me home. Then spend the next few weeks, months, years – however long it takes – curled up in my bed and just forgetting.
Horrible, horrible, horrible
Posted by: Laura on: October 5, 2009
I went to a meeting for my course today. A relaxed, friendly meeting, no work required, just saying hello and trying to find a time for regular meetings. The people seemed nice and the course seemed interesting.
And I was anxious to a degree that was truly horrific.
My voice was too loud, I stood out too [...]
Blaaaah
Posted by: Laura on: June 15, 2009
Update: Nothing.
Nothing has changed. I still feel like complete and utter shit.
I’ve been thinking about something for my dissertation proposal but I’m stuck between two facts:
If I’m going to be spending months researching and writing about something, I want it to be something I’m at least vaguely interested in.
Right now, I’m not even vaguely interested [...]
I can’t do this.
Posted by: Laura on: June 11, 2009
It’s too much. I can’t do it. I don’t want to.
The anxiety is excruciating. Hiding behind my door. Looking through the peephole. Switching the light off so people will think I’m out. If I do have to go out, waiting for the corridor light to go off, then running to the front door of the [...]
Oh, I don’t know.
Posted by: Laura on: June 8, 2009
I really kind of have no idea how I feel or what I’m doing or what the hell’s going on.
Anxiety
Posted by: Laura on: February 8, 2009
I don’t recall ever having anxiety this bad, apart from perhaps about a year ago, and that was caused by my brief, disastrous trial of sertraline (Lustral/Zoloft).
How am I supposed to sleep? Or concentrate, or think?
I just feel fucking terrified and I want to run away all the time and my heart’s beating too fast [...]
Feeling sorry for myself.
Posted by: Laura on: November 22, 2008
Apologies in advance for the whiney, pathetic nature of this post (yes, and every post on this blog).
What people think.